This is one of the most meaningful songs in my life.

God is God

And the pain falls like a curtain
On the things I once called certain
And I have to say the words I fear the most
I just don't know

And the questions without answers
Come and paralyze the dancer
And I stand here on the stage afraid to move
Afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must
On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture He's painting
God is God and I am man
So I'll never understand it all
For only God is God

And the sky begins to thunder
And I'm filled with awe and wonder
'Til the only burning question that remains
Is who am I

Can I form a single mountain
Take the stars in hand and count them
Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me
He is first and last before all that has been
Before all that will pass

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture he's painting
God is God and I am man
So I'll never understand it all
For only God is God

Oh how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge
How unsearchable for to Him and through Him and from Him
Are all things

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture he's painting
God is God and I am man
So I'll never understand it all
For only God is God

Hello.

Wednesday was pretty good.

Thursday. The morning was good.... I had my piano lesson. Went to voice class for the musical. We got a good amount of ground covered. Then we had dance. It was more than a little frustrating, but that's what comes with putting on a musical.

Today was Nathan's last Thursday at drama cause he's gonna start working on Thursdays. Andrea Kelly isn't coming back. At all. She's in private school now. That makes me sad.

I'm really tired.

I wore my happy pants to drama today. They're pajama pants and they're the best in the world. See, Melanie and I decided that we would wear pajama pants to drama in protest to the earliness of the hour. Mine are pink with a billion Cheshire Cats on them with a bunch of weird squiggly designs and stuff. And they're gaucho style. They make me happy.

I think I might go to sleep now.

Susanna


Well you know those times
When you feel like there's a sign there on your back
Say's I don't mind if ya kick me
Seems like everybody hasT
hings go from bad to worse
You'd think they can't get worse than that
And then they do

You step off the straight and narrow
And you don't know where you are
Use the needle of your compass
To sew up your broken heart
Ask directions from a genie
In a bottle of Jim Beam
And she lies to You
That's when you learn the truth

If you're going through hell
Keep on going,
Don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there

Yeah,
If you're going through hell
Keep on moving,
Face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah you might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah.

...I had a bad day again.

Yeah. Yesterday was just one-of-those-days. Almost everything went wrong. I didn't get enough sleep so my head hurt in the morning, I didn't understand most of my algebra, I was distracted while I did my reading, ate Sonic for lunch (that wasn't bad), had to make cornbread and oatmeal cookies for Family Dinner Night at the Russells, got about half way through that and realized that we didn't have any eggs. I needed 7. So I had to pack up everything I had already mixed up and haul it over to Aubrey's where she kindly let me bake it all there, thought that would be the end of my bad day...and it wasn't. While the cornbread was in the oven, I realized that I had completely left out the sugar. All of it. Decided not to tell anyone just in case they didn't realize it. They did. I was about ready to cry. Went from the Russells' to go see a really terrible movie called "All the King's Men." I hated it. Came home and hit my head on my door because I thought it was open and it wasn't. So yeah. That was my day.

The one spot in my day that I did like was precious. Right before dinner, Joshua (6) prayed for the food. After the usual 'thank you for this day, etc.' he said "...And please help Emily and Michelle to be safe..." That made me smile.

Today, so far, has not been so bad. Bible study tonight. It's at the Cohoons' house.

Alright, I'm gonna go clean the powder room. I love all you guys!

Susanna

"She said I would not understand
She left a note and said
'I'm sorry,
I had a bad day again."

My head is pounding...just like it does every morning when I wake up too early--when I don't get enough sleep. I hate waking up at 7 every weekday. Especially when the night before I was straining to keep from falling asleep so I could finish my reading in the Iliad till midnight. Yeah. There are some days when I feel optimistic about school...today is not one of them.

My dad leaves tomorrow evening. Again. This time for Las Vegas. He brought me a t-shirt and earrings from Hawaii!

My apologies for my last post...I realized that the pic was dangerously verging on the edge of emo...and I'm not that emo.

I LOVE the weather!!! It makes me happy.

Last Friday we had the HOPE picnic. I dragged Melanie along so I'd have someone to talk to besides....Beth. So that was cool. Went hiking with all the little kids.

Okay. So you heard my mini rant about school, and all my other ramblings, so I'm going to stop now and go get ready for school and take some aspirin or something.

Until next time,

Susanna

"But now I know
She never was and
Never will be
You're not real and
You can't save me"

...and my niece. This post is dedicated to pictures I took of two of my adorable nieces and nephews, Sam and Abby. Last Tuesday at family dinner night I just decided to take fun pictures of them:) Enjoy!

















































































































They are so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, going to finish school now. HOPE picnic tonight.

Love,

Susanna

"You could cry or die or just make pies all day"

It's official. Gilbert, the fish, is dead. He died while we were at Bible study last night. Beth's pretty upset, or at least she was last night. In a strange way, I actually do feel sad. I knew I kept saying that I wanted it to die and all, but he was like a sort of security blanket...the last thing we had to symbolize this last summer. And now he's dead. And I feel bad.

On a happier note, Melanie came to Bible study last night...said she really liked it. It was fun to go through my sister's house with her and talk about things we remember about each other in that house like 9-10 years ago. Felt like little kids again by sliding down the stairs:).

Due to complaints from an anonymous 16 year old sister of mine, I will not be posting pictures from Waxahachie.

In January, two friends that I have known for 5 years are moving. I thought I had it bad when I had to move back from Hawaii 5 years ago, after being there 2 1/2 years. Try leaving 14 years behind. I can't imagine....

My dad gets home tomorrow from Hawaii, then has to leave again on Monday for Las Vegas on yet another business trip.




<----in m opinion, this is one of the best pictures in the world. This was the beginning of spring, and we were on the way from Laser Quest to go eat somewhere. Yep. Fun times.










Okay, I have to get ready for drama, I love each and every one of you!

Susanna

"I don't want to go to the drugstore...I don't like the drugstore."

"I've got a beautiful feeling, everything's going my way, oh what a beautiful day!"

LITERALLY! Today has been gorgeous.

Ugh. Today I found the fourth scorpion in my house this week. Don't you find it ironic that since I am the one who hates scorpions with a fiery passion, I should be the one to find all of them in the bathroom and the kitchen? Coincidence? I think not. I think it's high time my parents let me get cats again.

I went to the optometrist on Saturday, and as it turns out, I must get PART TIME glasses. For stuff like reading, playing piano, computer, tv, etc.

The movie "What's Up, Doc?" is amazing. One of the funniest ever. Right up there with Princess Bride, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Steel Magnolias, Zoolander, and Fiddler on the Roof.

Chocolate has been demoted from being my favorite candy, since I'm more-than-likely lactose intolerant. So Gummy Worms has taken its place. They're the best. Whoever wants to bring me gummy worms to drama on thursday will be my hero!! ;)

Here's something I forgot to mention for the past few days: I have a new piano teacher. Her name is Penny Pitamber and she's really nice. I'll be taking lessons on Thursdays inbetween morning acting class and afternoon production class for a half hour. The focal point will be hymns (although that's not what I most enjoy playing, I need to be able to play them well), but we'll do some more stuff out of my Wicked and Phantom of the Opera hopefully:).

I SO wish I could play Defying Gravity!!!!!

~^~ << if you look at that upside down, it kind of looks like a bird or something...I don't know...just thought that up...random.

For all you people who went to Waxahachie last November, or if you heard about it and didn't go but want to know what happened up there, GET READY, my next post is pictures from Waxahachie!!! Hehehe.

Love,

Susanna

I'm bored. REALLY bored. Just finished watching Wife Swap on TV. Cause it's the weekend and we can watch TV.

Stayed home from church today cause my mom pulled her hip.

Have yall ever heard Michael W. Smith's album "Freedom?" it's the best ever. Purely orchestrational, and it's amazing.

I added a new link to my list. It's a quiz I made, so whenever you're REALLY bored and have NOTHING better to do, you can take it.

I'm not very fond of vanilla.

Argh I'm so sad I didn't get to go with some of y'all downtown last night! Ah well, there'll be other times in the future.

Alright, I'm going to eat dinner, but here's a cool picture.
















Me and Caleb and Beth. that was back when my hair was REALLY long*sniff*

Love,

Susanna

"I am bloodstained, I have been reborn, the stain is not, no it's not coming out."

Read through this list and count how many times you smile:)


Doing something to make a baby laugh

Walking on the beach

A beautiful sunset

A cool, crisp morning

A really good picture you took

A family photo

Going to a historical landmark

A starry night

A beautiful perfect rose

A million dollar smile from someone you love

Being misted by a waterfall

Ice skating and not falling down

Trees silhouetted against a dusky sky

Walking on rocks across a stream

A butterfly landing on you

A dark room suddenly flooded with light

Getting a letter from someone you haven't seen in years

Your favorite song coming on the radio at the perfect time

Getting a smile from someone across a busy room


What do you think?

Susanna

"Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens"

Yep today was pretty much awesome. Me and Scott rock at the Mikado! ;) EYELINER AND LIPSTICK!! I also was a associate to a criminal today, I disposed of the contraband soda can in the sanctuary:) somebody owes me for that.

Why do things have to change again??????

I decided Paul Giamatti is awesome.

My brother Tim might have broken his toe yesterday.

















^^^this is an old picture I found of me and CJ. I was bored yesterday so I played with it:)

TTFN (ta-ta for now!)

Love,

Ko-Ko (hehehe)

this is the design on the hoodie i'm getting hopefully sometime this week. Isn't it the best???

















I've decided what I'm going to do with my hair. I'm going to let it grow...until New Year's. Then I'll cut it shoulder length again. Then I'll let it grow until after the play, then I'll cut it the same way and *drum roll please* I'm dying it dark red! it's gonna be sweet. Tell me what ya think.

Love,

Susanna

Today is September 11.

Five years ago, the World Trade Towers collapsed due to terrorists. I remember almost everything I did that day.
I was 9 years old. I woke up, ate breakfast, started my schoolwork. All of the sudden, all the adults were in Aubrey and Dirk's room watching these two planes crash into these two towers. That meant little to me. After a while I asked my mom if she and I could go to the Lackland Base Exchange. She looked at me like I was crazy, saying that my dad wasn't even on the base yet, and he'd been on the road for hours (we lived like 30 away from the base). Several people tried to explain what had happened, that bad men had taken control of some planes and crashed them into the World Trade Towers. I didn't even know what those were. And why would they purposefully crash planes into some really big buildings? I didn't have the slightest clue what terrorism was. How did this all affect me? What could I do? Why did anyone expect me to care? My mom, dad, Aubrey, Dirk, and CJ watched the TV all day. My mom said we didn't have to finish our school that day. It was a long day. It took me about a year to finally realize what had happened. For the next few months, all my parents and older siblings talked about was terrorism and the 'Taliban' and some guy named Ben Laden. Who the heck was that??? Even at my church, that guy was the center of conversation. I understand it all now, and it seems like it was just last week. I can't believe it's been five whole years since so much destruction happened. I really want to go see the movie 'world trade center.' It's supposed to be really good.

Okay, just thought I'd write a bit. Leave me some nice comments:)

Love,

Susanna

"Congratulations cause we've made it all the way home, all the way home."

Fairest Lord Jesus,
Ruler of all nature,
O Thou of God and man the Son,
Thee will I cherish, Thee will I honor,
Thou, my soul's glory, joy and crown.

Fair are the meadows, fairer still the woodlands,
Robed in the blooming garb of spring;
Jesus is fairer, Jesus is purer,
Who makes the woeful heart to sing.

Fair is the sunshine,
Fairer still the moonlight,
And all the twinkling starry host;
Jesus shines brighter, Jesus shines purer
Than all the angels heaven can boast.

All fairest beauty, heavenly and earthly,
Wondrously, Jesus, is found in Thee;
None can be nearer, fairer or dearer,
Than Thou, my Savior, art to me.

Beautiful Savior! Lord of all the nations!
Son of God and Son of Man!
Glory and honor, praise, adoration,
Now and forever more be Thine.

Yesterday I cried for one of my friends who is headed down a very bad road. I don't know what to do. This person is so different from last year. Or maybe just so I thought. I don't know what to think. Or how to respond.

The song Kryptonite makes me happy. I don't know why.

I went shopping today w/ my mom. Got ballet slippers for drama.

So we might be having section rehearsals for the musical at my house sometime. My mom's theoretically gonna have all the altos and baritones come over to get our parts straight.

I like singing harmonies. They're fun.

I'm hoping to get the awesomest hoodie ever sometime soon. It is seriously awesome. It's black, and in white letters it says 'eisley' and has one of their weird abstract designs on it. It's wicked sweet.

Love,

Susanna

"Sing us a song, you're the Piano Man; sing us a song tonight. When we're all in the mood for a melody, you've got us feelin' alright."

Yeah, I'd be scared of me taking a picture too....













Cristen Ann. I'm gonna miss her!!!













Me and the lovely Anna.













Steven turned on the theme song for "Fresh Prince of Bel-Aire"on the keyboard...














...and Melanie started rapping it!













So cute! Nate pretending to play the guitar! hehe j/k












Yep, me and Mel can pretty much make any hat look awesome, even if they belong to people such as Dustin and PT (bet you can't guess whose is who's!)











Okay, there are the promised pictures from the official first day of drama. I didn't take very many, sorry. I also apologize if captions don't come through on all of them, I can't figure it out to save my life. I'm technologically impaired:)

Love,

Susanna

I am so tired! Beth and I were working all morning. Have you ever swept a wall? I have. Got to talk to Emily on the phone...that was awesome:)

Why do pictures look better in black and white?

Okay, I'm gonna go shower cause I'm pretty much covered in dust.

I was going to post pictures from drama, but once again blogger is determined to make me mad. So I'll do it later.

Love,

Susanna

"I cut the moon in half and stuck a piece to my hair, it made the back of my head glow"

Today was the first day of drama. It was super fun. Alot of new stuff to get used to like no congregating in the halls, only being allowed in two rooms, different class times, etc. But I have a feeling that this year is gonna rock. Musicals are the best ever, and we're not just doing A musical, we're doing scenes from TONS of musicals! It did feel kind of weird, though, with so many people not there that were there last year. And not just the seniors. There are some people who weren't graduating, but that just weren't coming back.

I made a new friend in drama today, too. Her name is Melanie. The moment we met, we got along right off the bat. She's really cool, and now I ACTUALLY have a friend who loves Eisley as much as I do!!! Sweet.

So I'm gonna be an alto for the musical. I can be either a soprano or an alto, but there's kind of a shortage of people who can sing harmonies, and I happen to be able to. So that's where I'm gonna be. And it works out nicely because my mom is an alto so she and I will work on song stuff together during the week.

Came home and had family dinner night. Aubrey made Thai Chicken Pasta. It rocks. I swear my family should open a restaurant. We'd make millions.

Later I'll post pictures from today.

Apparently, to SOME certain people who will not be named, my blog is just a place to visit when you're bored. I guess I'm not very interesting. Hm.

Something occured to me while I was on vacation. It was revolutionary. Out of all 9 of us Warren kids, I'm the most expendable. Think about it. I have 3 older sisters who are happily married with kid(s)--not expendable. Then I have a 19 year old sister who is our second mother--not expendable. I have my older brother who is the oldest boy--not expendable. I have an older sister who is a stage manager--not expendable. I have a little brother who is the biggest bookworm I know--not expendable. Then I have my youngest brother who lives in his imagination more than half the time--not expendable. Then you have me. I contribute little to my family other than reality blonde jokes. And there's not really much use for those. But you know what? I am perfectly absolutely positively okay with that. I'm fine with how I am and how expenable I am. If I wasn't expendable, there wouldn't be an expendable one. So yeah. I thought that was pretty interesting.

Love,

Susanna

I might be lactose intolerant.

Ahhhhhh!!!!! Last night I went with Nate, Matt, Daniel, Anna, Nicole, Steven, and Beth to see The Illusionist. It rocked! See, we were originally going to see Invincible. But then before Anna and Nicole got there they called and said they wanted to see the illusionist instead. I had no idea what it was so while me and anna and nicole were at Taco Cabana, I asked what it was about and they said it had Christian Bale and Hugh Jackman. So I said, "Ohhhh, no, you're thinking of The Prestige. That hasn't come out yet." So then there was a big discussion on what The Illusionist was actually about, and it turns out it had Edward Norton, Paul Giamatti(who i love) and Jessica Biel. It was really good.

Yesterday I got pink converse high tops at the BX. My dad paid half, I paid half. They're flippin' sweet.

So it turns out, I was right when I said that lions live in the savannah.

School today, school tomorrow, drama next day, school next day, starting to see a pattern?

Alright. I must go get ready for school.

Love,

Susanna

Well, today, someone is coming to take Ellie away. Ellie was the Slaughters' dog, but when they moved to Virginia, they couldn't take her with them, so she stayed with us. She's been with us since then, and sometime today a man is going to take her to live with him and his family. I never really played with Ellie all that often, but it's going to be sad. She won't know anyone, she's leaving the last people she knows. Now our only pets will be R.I.P. the fish, who Bethany says is named Gilbert, and Dudley, Matt's cat(who dad calls Dumphey).

Ahh last night was so much fun! We had a party for Becca (who I didn't even know was going to be there). It was awesome. Good company...good food...good dancing...good music...good games...good wine--wait, scratch that last one ;). Yeah it was great. There was a lot of people there. I'll post pictures from it, as soon as *somebody* sends them to me:)

I'm excited. Tomorrow is Labor Day and since my dad gets off work that day we're not gonna do school, and we're gonna go to breakfast together. Fun fun.

Tonight as a pre labor day celebration, the russells and the smiths are coming over for a cookout. I suppose I should make a dessert or something....



Here's another pic from vacation. Me and my nephew Josh at the pool in Brunswick, Maryland. Now don't we look attractive? I was *smart enough* to jump into the pool with my sunglasses on....

"Wetness is the essence of moisture, and moisture is the essence of beauty."
^^props to you if you know what that line is from.




Well, this post is drawing to a close. Love every last one of you,

Susanna



O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

Through death into life everlasting
He passed, and we follow Him there;
O’er us sin no more hath dominion—
For more than conquerors we are!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonerful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

His Word shall not fail you—He promised;
Believe Him, and all will be well:
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

*EDIT* so it turns out that the guy who said he was going to get Ellie never came. So the sadness can postpone itself a little while until somebody else calls:) *END OF EDIT*